roughing it

My husband and our four sons are going camping tomorrow...in a tent...in freezing cold weather. They were insistent they did not need a cabin. they are men. They laugh at the cold. I am glad I am skipping out on this little excursion. You see, me and the great outdoors and mother nature are not on speaking terms.

It started when I was a little girl and my sister, Angela being the fabulous big sister she was used to put frogs on me. It expanded further when my cousins, closest to my age, (all boys) used to pick daddy long legs off of the swing set at my grandparents house and dangle them over me. The outside is filled with bugs and flying insects. The heating is too hot and the air condition is too cold. I'd rather see my nature in magazines or television in the warmth or cool of my home (or hotel or if I am feeling adventurous, a cabin).

Here is a pic of me "enjoying" the petting zoo at Animal Kingdom

The Gift

And all those who seek it shall find it
A pardon for all who believe
Hope for the hopeless and sight for the blind.

Wow! Those words touch my very core...and I have to admit they make me weep a little. The love of Jesus Christ summed up in three lines. Three lines that remind my soul it is unworthy to receive, but can stand there with outstreched hands and allow HIS grace to run through its fingers and spill out into a life that is utterly lost without it.

I have been given such a gift. I forget about it. Tuck into the dark of my closets and try unsuccessfully to live my life without it. I may do it for days, weeks and most recently months. Eventually I come to a point the very air I breathe is hindered and Praise God HE pulls me back to that dark closets and forces me to my knees and sheds light on what I have had all along.

I am an imperfect wife. A mistake ridden mother. And most of the time a sorry witness of Christ. Daily I struggle with rights and wrongs. Logic and feelings. I am selfish. I am a pathetic example of what GOD would have be to me. I don't deserve HIS love. Yet, still, day after day after day HE wants to give it to me. I am like a disobedient child and HE my loving Father that doesn't not see my imperfections but sees who HE created me to be. And I am thankful for the way HE sees me.

hellooooooooooooooooo

This is so very exciting! This is only my 100th attempt at maintaining a blog...I'm sure this time it will stick!! I am a wife and a mom and thirdly I am a drama queen! I am married to The Producer and we have produced four actors together! Our oldest is almost twelve...you will know him as Stage Left. He is really into xbox and history! Our second actor, Stage Right is eight...he is the athlete of the family...not sure where he gets it...we think he was switched at the hospital! Our third actor...Upstage is the sweetest thing you will ever meet! He is six and his big blue eyes would put Sinatra to shame! Our youngest, Center Stage is four and his name says it all! Here is a pic of our family at Disney! We are such hams!!!